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How can you absorb seeing your child for the last time? My baby, my boy. The game goes on, as of course it must. Everyone loses someone they love, and then loses something else.
What I lost was trust. Trust in the goodness of the world, in luck, in sure things. Truthfully, I knew these concepts were capricious long before Ronan was diagnosed with a terminal disease that took his life before his third birthday, but it has worsened since, even with a happy finally marriage, even Finding a derserving love a healthy daughter who crawls and babbles and reaches for me and sleeps tucked into my Finding a derserving love each night, snoring and sighing.
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I feel an increasing need for reassurance, a need for life and emotions to lobe locked, immovable, steady. I feel protective of the details Finding a derserving love my intimate life, circumscribed by my domestic space, wanting to ward off any force that might puncture it.
I imagine bodies being knocked back into the arroyo, access denied. What I want is to be left alone in a room with only the people I trust.
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No more friends, no more commitments, no more struggle. A big circus tent full of affection and laughter and beauty and art and talent and brainpower.
Nobody would ever want to leave. It would be easy, I think, Finding a derserving love of course this is an illusion, and a close cousin of nostalgia, that dangerous and disastrous longing that is built on lies, on projections, on controllable fantasies that never align with the truth of what has passed between people.
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The ultimate act of navel-gazing. The memory likes to distort, the imagination likes to wander and spin, master of its own elaborate outcomes.
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I will resist this, I know, but I will work through this resistance, if only as an experiment, perhaps as a tribute to Ronan, to my husband and daughter. I live with the love of my life.
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I have a beautiful girl. I had a beautiful boy.
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